Endocranial Mayhem!

I just noticed, I lost a follower. I only had 3, now I'm down to 2. LOL. I'm such a loser...but I guess nobody wants to hear me complain about prime-time television and how I have no life. But you know, all the greats have no lives outside their passions. Well, honestly, I don't care. I'm going to blog about what I want.

Anyway, I heard I should start taking college courses next year. I want to do it and graduate early, but I don't know if I can handle it. I mean, I know it'll benefit me in the long run, because I'll have my core classes out of the way in college, but still. I don't know if I'll be able to balance normal school with the extra. I mean, I already have to put in effort now. Do you think I should drop some Pre-AP classes and do the college credit classes? Or suck it up and do all AP AND college? UGH. I don't know. I mean, I want to take all AP and graduate (hopefully) at the top of the class. I know it's an impossible goal, but I'm willing to climb Everest. (Was that a bad metaphor?) I have to figure out a way to balance it out. And soon. Graduation doesn't seem that far off, even though I'm only a freshman. People are right. High school does go by fast. I'm almost finishing up freshman year, and it seems like I only started. Ugh. I'm morbidly afraid of college, smart, genuis kids, particularly smart, genuis INDIAN kids. You KNOW those kids are freakishly intelligent. So are the Chinese. Fortunately, I'm half Chinese. I've kinda got that smart gene. But only a little. ;)

Next week is going to SUCK. Not only is it TAKS week (stated-mandated test for school), there will be absolutely NO NEW EPISODES of Bones, House OR NCIS. Can you believe it? I think it's because I sent that angry e-mail to Fox. And they conspired my demise by preempting my favorite shows the same week. LOL. Even though NCIS isn't on Fox. It's on CBS. They probably got the word out. 'Conspire against crazy, angry, ranting asians!'

Fin.

Fat Tuesday, and oh, Canada.

I'm going to Mardi Gras with the French club this weekend. Not the one in Louisiana, though, but a celebration in a town about an hour away. The name of said town will remain confidential, mostly because I don't know who exactly reads this mess. LOL. Sadly, French club is the only club I'm in. TT_TT I should have gone to the opera last weekend with them. Oh, well. I'm planning on going to Medeival Times with them in March. :D

Tomorrow will be a great day, I think. The talent show is tomorrow, so I'll be like the other hundreds of kids out of class. (YAY! My camera's ready.) I may be a nerd, but who would pass a "get out of class free" card? Certainly not me. And on top of that, it's an early release day! Report cards are due. My mom will be going to pick it up. I think my grades are top notch...ish. I managed raised my Biology and World Geography PAP to a high A, again. As for English, I'm sure it's not that bad. Mid-A, perhaps. And well, Geometry...I don't know if it's that great. I bombed that Pythagorean Theorem test. (I felt like an IDIOT. I made a 79! +5 bonus points. It should've been EASY.) So, I'm still expecting an A, but not like previous six-weeks. If my mom gripes at me, I'll give her the whole "it's Pre-AP, it's harder than the other classes!" speech. It usually works. And my grades aren't that bad. Geez.

In addition to all that tomorrow? It's BONESDAY! Yay! Lol. A new episode, which I've been awaiting patiently. Well, kind of. Aside from the griping on message boards, complaints to friends, and angry E-mails to Fox, I'd say I'm pretty calm and patient. :D


Did you know that Canadians get new episodes of Bones a day before us? It's not right! They got to see it tonight. I'm moving to Canada. For real this time. Also, the writers and creators of House and Bones are CANADIAN. Do you know how amazing that is? I think I love Canada. With their free health care, gay marriage (which by the way, serves no purpose to me. But still.), and cuter kittens, why NOT move to Canada? If you know me in real life, you'd know that I (& Monika, lol) have a passion for Canada. We even let people think we're Canadian. And some people believe it. But, alas, it's only a facade. Oh, how I wish I was from Canada.



Tootles.

Happy Singles Awareness Day!

Another commercial holiday set up by corporations to take our money and for anyone who doesn't have anybody to spend it with to feel like shit. Isn't it great? Oh, well. I can spend it basking in my own sorrows. I don't want want romance. I stopped trying, a LONG time ago. Guys will just be guys, and well, until I find someone worth the while, I'm not planning on any kind of 'dating' and stupid teenage relationships. Which, by the way, 9 times out of 10, don't work out. Never have expectations too high, you're only setting yourself up for disappointment.

My saying? You can either be expect what you saw coming or be pleasantly surprised. It tends to work for me. A pessimist is usually someone who is has already been acquainted with optimism. And I've found out, pessimism is the way to go.

Anyway, here's an NCIS fan video, wonderfully crafted, and amazingly edited. It's made to appear to be like a trailer. I rate it 5 stars, although the ending is quite anti-climatic. But I guess that's what makes it a good "movie trailer". If only, if only.

(Note: To anyone who doesn't know, NCIS is a TV show, not a movie. These scenes and clips are all part of different episodes.)

Enjoy!

Birthdays and Anullments

First off, I'd like to say thanks to anyone who wished me a happy birthday or anyone who even bothered to remember. It was nice, feeling special, even if only for a moment. What did I get? Not a lot. But I'm not complaining. I got everything I asked for (well, it was only one thing.), and everything I deserved. Or rather, the nothing that I deserved. Anyway, here's a compiled list of what I received for this joyous occasion.

1) A 'Happy Birthday' post typed in large letters from the Bones message board. I think she was the first to do so.

2) Verbal 'Happy Birthdays' from various people at school. I'm not going to name them, partially because I can't. Thanks, everyone.

3) A dollar from Thalia at lunch.

4) About last week, the DVR I asked for. I've been recording like crazy. Courtesy of my dear mother. And a maybe shopping trip with my mom.

5) Two hundred dollars from the dad.



Does that make up for one missed birthday and a Christmas? I don't know. Well, to tell you the truth, I was surprised. My dad called the house. I was alone with my brother. He says he's sending someone to come over to give me some money for birthday. I just say 'okay'. So, this has got me worried. I didn't call my mom, didn't tell her. She doesn't know. Am I wrong for keeping it from her?

So on with the birthday thing. My dad sends one of his employees, someone I know, to our house, to give me 200 dollars. I don't think my dad can legally come to our house, with the whole divorce still going on. So yeah, the first conversation of any kind with the man in over 5 months, and that's all he has to say. I'm kind of glad. I didn't want to get deep.

My mom comes home and tells me that he asked for me at the store. Well, technically, his employee asks for me. Which, I'm guessing, is before the call. She asks me if I want to go, and I say no, well because, I already have what he was going to give me! She still doesn't know. I regret it, but I'm in a rut here. I've just complicated my life.

The divorce has been going on for about a year and five months now. Expensive supreme court lawyers, custody battles over my brother; my dad doesn't want custody of me. On the papers, it does. But it's only to look good in court. When I hit 18, he won't have to pay child support for me. It's only 3 years away. Ongoing disputes between my parents for their business. Money. It always comes back down to money.

Money ruined my life. And yet, I can't NOT have it. Maybe greed has pulled me in. Or perhaps, I'm only human.

When I'm 15

I'll be 15 tomorrow. I haven't made a big deal out of it. I don't feel any different. No parties, no celebration.

I haven't spoken to my dad in....well, a long time. I'd say since summer of last year? And what's weird is, he lives in the same town as me. In fact, I could walk about 50 feet and go see him. No, literally, 50 feet. But I don't. I've never had an emotional connection with him, and frankly, I don't know if I ever will. It shouldn't be my incentive to go. Today, he asked somebody to tell me to go see him tomorrow. It's my birthday. I didn't see him at all for my last birthday, when I turned 14.

So, I don't know how why. Oh, well. It's not a big deal. It never is.

5 days

I was planning on doing a blog everyday for a week until my birthday. Well, I forgot about yesterday so...never mind. I changed my blog URL again, I know. I can't keep on for long, you know. And that's the beautiful thing, I can change it whenever I feel like it.

Honestly, I have nothing to talk about. Whatever's got me worked up this weekend, you wouldn't care for, so I'm not going to tell you. I did mention it in one of my previous blogs, though, so yeah.

Five days until I'm 15.

I need some things to do in school. Like clubs, or something. I need to get started on my highschool career. Last semester was a daze; I only managed to maintain my grades. I didn't get anything done. If you've got any suggestions on what I could participate in, don't hesitate to tell me. Call me, text me, comment me, message me. I don't care. Just tell me.

I think I'm done here.

(Oh, yeah! I got a Twitter. It's really cool. I'm actually got it, because I wanted to "follow" Stephen Fry. Not at all in a literal sense, lol. That's just weird... But MY Twitter is twitter.com/christinaof94 , so follow me!)

Mad skillz or what?

As a few people in my life know, Photoshop is one of my hobbies. I like to do it for fun and the finished products always excite me. I'd like to share some with you! Here are a few of my creations. Be gentle; though feedback is always welcome. Don't knit pick it too badly; I'm very much an amateur.

Here's one, kind of a wallpaper.

I don't know what brought it on.
Kind of suckish, in my opinion.

I used the individual cast photos for this banner.

The process of cutting each person out isn't as grueling as you think.
As you can see, it's my blog header, though I didn't originally plan it to be that way.

Just a snippet of the above.

I cropped it and used it as my Yahoo! IM* icon.

Inspired by the one above.

I needed an icon for my account on the NCIS message boards, so I made one.
I also used the individual cast photos for this one.
Am I obsessed or what?

Aaannnddd, last but certainly not least, one of my favorites.
I loved, loved the quote, so I made this. I had to download that font, because it looked "sciency". What do yout think?

None of these are really that hardcore, pretty mediocre. I'm still proud of them, none the less. And also, if you read this post, please be sure to read and comment of some previous ones too!

*Speaking which, if you have Yahoo! IM, message me! My screen name is christinagosane .

7 days

This is my last week being fourteen. On this day next week, I'll be 15. I'm not doing anything to celebrate. I think I'm just going to go to the mall and splurge on some clothes. That's always fun, especially when doing it with friends.

Anyway, today, the Directv technician came and set up my DVR. EEE! Unfortunately, our 60-inch is still in the shop getting repairs, so my mother temporarily had the tech guy hook it up to a very little TV (what is it, 15 inches? lol) that we had in our kitchen, and moved to the living room. It feels so empty. I'm sooo anticipating its arrival, so I can bask in HD big screen goodness. But I still feel like a fool and an technologically impaired idiot for being so excited. I was sitting there flipping through the guide and pressing record like nobody's business. I've already set it to record the next two weeks' episodes of NCIS and House. This thing is great! I feel like a little kid in a candy store. I'd like to applaud whoever came up with this thing, because it's simply amazing. Yipee!


If you don't care for Bones, or anything that has to do with it, stop reading now.

Did you see last night's episode?! It was simply amazing. One hour is simply not enough for this program! I loved, loved, loved Teddy Parker. Booth should definitely hallucinate and see ghosts more often. On the down side, I thought the rescue in the helicopter scene lacked the emotion expected from two very close friends i.e. Brennan and Booth. I wanted to see a breakdown, some tears, or something! Maybe a kiss. ;) Alas, I am only a fan girl, and I can only dream. I did like the scene in the cemetary though. I only wish that Booth would've told Brennan what Teddy said.

-sigh- Another two weeks until the next episode, because it gets pre-empted because of stupid American Idol. My tv guide only shows up to the day before next Thursday! Once that sucker shows up, I'm hitting that record button faster than you can say Bones! :D

EDIT: Apparently, after the episode in two weeks, there will be TWO preemptions in a row! This makes me furious. I'll have to wait 3 weeks for a new episode after the one coming on the 19th. THIS SUCKS. It's all because of American Idol. I hate that show more now. With a passion.